watching expired appliances align

like all the boys

i must be in a weird 'place' right now. i've got, like, a mad crush on this person i don't even know. how does that happen? it's not like she's a complete stranger to me. she's more than just some random name i heard called out at a doctor's office. more than a random name i saw on a credit card receipt at macy's.

and what makes my crush even more hopeless (i mean, what is better than a hopeless crush?) is that i think a zillion other boys (and probably a few girls) have hopeless crushes on her too. and i don't know her well enough to know if she knows all these people are crushing...or if she's completely oblivious to all the hearts out there going pitter-patter.

the way she talks - the things she mentions - all so seductive. but all done so slyly. it's just amazing that a person can present herself as being so incredibly compatible...and, yet, i have no idea of what she's really like. having this crush is the best feeling. i want to spend each night of the entire week out at a different bar with a different friend telling him or her about my new crush. and then i want word to trickle back to my new crush. and then i want it to morph into this whole skipping under rainbows scenario. sort of like in those punky brewster saturday morning cartoons. but 3-d. with a bit more edge. and sex.