watching expired appliances align

tv/decisions/creativity

was tonight a repeat of last night? no shelf unit built. watched showtime instead of hbo. "the chris isaak show" is the best show on tv that you're not watching. (sometimes it's good to sound like a tv guide cover)

and it's amazing what brushing your teeth and cleansing your face will do for your attitude. i was tired right after watching "varsity blues" but now i'm awake and ready to tackle (sorry, it was a football movie) the evening.

while brushing my teeth i started thinking about how i sometimes don't follow through on projects or things i start. and i feel like i'm not following through on my relationship that just ended. what else could i have said? what else could i have done? it was a strange situation, and i knew the risks, and i still got involved. and it turned out like predicted. only i wanted it to turn out happy. living in the suburbs. with a wife. kids. a house. maybe a dartboard in the basement. and a big bay window.

i could have gone to the red sox/yankees game tonight. i passed because i wasn't in the mood and the tickets were too expensive. is now the right time to fill my head with thoughts about how the decision making process works?

at saturday night's party i found myself deep into a conversation about creativity. i'd just climbed five flights of stairs, my brain thinking thoughts of tweezer, looking for a lighter so i could light yet another of the cigarettes i had that night. i don't think i was ready for a conversation about how "everything we do involves creativity." i sort of plodded my way through that conversation until the group conversation turned to the subject of previous parties where everyone got naked and ran through the streets of chicago. is that creative, or just silly?